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Allison Beary. Friend. Daughter. Sister. and “Mother”.
It pains me to see my mom cry so much. The past two days have been rough. One of my mom’s closest friends is basically on her death bed; cancer has won this time. This woman, Allison, is amazing. I consider her to be my second mom, and soon she will be leaving this place to be greeted into a beautiful place with no more pain. No more chemo. No more radiation. And a place that only has love for her and her beauty that shines from the inside out. She will be happy and at peace finally. This past year has been rough, not only on her but on everyone that supports her. I love her so much and although I haven’t shown that through tears yet, I know that she knows inside how much I love her. I know that even though she wasn’t completely conscious today, she knew my mom was there and that she forgave her for the fight they had the last time they saw each other. And I know that in the end, everything will be okay. At some point the tears will stop. At some point we will be able to smile and laugh. Because Allison wouldn’t want so much mourning. She would just want us to be happy. I love you Allison! <3 Always and Forever, mom.
It’s weird..
I just keep having dreams about him. The one guy that had been my friend since kindergarten. The one guy that I truly considered as being my best friend and always having my back. That’s why I would love to go back to Arkansas this summer. Wouldn’t it be great to just randomly see him somewhere? See if I’m still remembered in his mind like he is in mine? Wouldn’t that just be spectacular? Just to see if after years of being away..if you are still remembered and thought about…
